& MI AMORE VOLE FE YAH

I'M BEAUTIFUL IN MY WAY
'CAUSE GOD MAKES NO MISTAKES
I'M ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY
I WAS BORN THIS WAY

DON'T HIDE YOURSELF IN REGRET
JUST LOVE YOURSELF AND YOU'RE SET
I'M ON THE RIGHT TRACK BABY
I WAS BORN THIS WAY

lady gaga - born this way

i cannot wait for her 3rd album. though i will never forgot how i bought fame monster deluxe which had the first cd in it too... something i already had. thanks for that. i found out afterward that you can buy just the second album separately...

the weather in LA has been less than happy. why so gloomy? dear god, please stop crying. however, my car has never been shinier!

hrm... last night i had the urge to get really drunk. i never drink. like really. and last night... i felt like it. so nik made me like 5 drinks and i passed out. HAH. i woke up at 3am and was like wtf? i'm not hungover though! wooooot.

i never thought i'd come to the point where i really want to just quit school. i'm so tired of FIDM. it's exhausting. and work is EXHAUSTING. i miss when i was in middle school and i actually got breaks. ya know... like winter break! for three weeks my life consisted of sleep, i love lucy, and clipping magazines. mmm luxury.

finally alleviating my closet bursting situation. bought 400 velvet hangers for my tops. and got space saver bag things for my winter coats that i literally never wear. anddd tory and i are going to have our 3rd bi-annual yard sale at her parents house in alta loma. everything is pretty much a dollar. closet purge. and since i made my savings goal before my birthday, every paycheck til my 21st birthday is being used to buy things i've always wanted but was too homeless to get when working at armani.

next: true religion joey cut offs. i did buy house of harlow sunglasses friday. can't wait til they get to me.

21 for my 21st..
1. velvet hangers for my tops
2. slr camera
3. house of harlow sunburst ring
4. siwy shorts x 2
5. house of harlow sunglasses
6. jeffery campbells x 2
7. a coffee table
8. bucky my moosehead
9. my sheepskin rug
10. hammitt bag
11. voluspa candles
12. foxtail that actually broke so this will need to be replaced
13. pillows for my futon

only 8 left? lame.






CHUBBY CHEEKS




urban outfitters skirt/armani exhange top/f21 jacket/marc fisher sandals/hammitt bag




cupcake heaven


before the rain

as always, thanks NIK for the lovely photos and the lovely playlist you so thoughfully dedicated to me. XOXO

*jenny bean

& one thing is clear

i wear a halo
i wear a halo when you look at me
but standing from here
you wouldnt say so

and i just wanna love you

haley james scott - halo

oh how i miss one tree hill... the seasons with lucas and peyton of course. who the fuck are all those new characters!?!?!? though nathan is still as hott as ever. mmmm. i remember in high school when my mom didn't let me watch any tv on weekdays so i'd have video tape that my dad gave me. i'd record all of my shows and then watch them on friday night. ahhh yess... the asian tivo. i got by. i STILL don't have tivo if that means anything. finally jumped on the netflix bandwagon last month. :)


















oh nip. he's my lover. check him out HERE




boutique dress/urban outfitters cardigan/black tights/michael kors shoes/hammitt bag HERE

today was no fun. no sir. ps don't text and drive... it'll catch up to you. there's always a rainbow at the end of every storm... right?

*jenny bean

& i'm coming home

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm coming home, I'm coming home
Tell the World that I'm coming

puff daddy p. diddy sean combs diddy dirty money - i'm coming home


today was especially bad. work was especially stressful. and i miss him. and my family. my mom emailed me, believe me, this is lightyears of improvement. she said she and my dad miss me very much. she always addresses me as daughter. it's truly precious.

made a trip to the gym for the first time in 1.5 weeks. i felt mildly out of shape. and mildly is a severe understatement. i do however need to buy myself a scale and put it in front of my fridge again. my last one got water damaged when my apartment flooded last november.

tonight's project... constructing BUCKY my deerhead that came in my shipment from Urban yesterday! and then Nik and i went to a different Urban where i bought even more pillows for my futon! yay! obsessed with pillows... truly.






























first photos with my new nikon... <3 clarity



pray for Bucky's survival.

*jenny bean

& all my life i've been good

But now I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

happy president's day. i had to work. poo.

still went shopping though... DUH.

urban and target to get my justin bieber cd. pride.



















chan luu dress/dolce vita shoes

xoxo
jenny bean

& i'm sick and tired of the mess you made me

Never gonna catch me cry
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me til the day you die



yesterday was not my favorite day. no sir. it's a trial run. it might be for the best and it might not. i miss him so much though :( let's see how strong i can be til the end of this quarter.

nik came over and bring me by homeboys ben & jerry and to fill some ninetieschild orders. our trip to ikea was canceled because we both wanted sushi instead. todai!! mmm. evidently they charge for uneaten food. so nik and i got these ramen bowls that tasted like paper. definitely a waste of calories and stomach space. i had these clam shells and got real creative. i started making little birds nest with my ramen and hiding them under the clam shells. i also suggested dropping the bowls off at someone else's table or "remorsefully" knocking the bowls over. hah. good times good times.

we ate so much we couldn't breathe, laugh, move... nik & i had trouble walked it off at the topanga mall. i walked it off at urban outfitters where i bought even more things... not to mention i have 2 shipments from them coming in on tuesday! i'm simply stimulating the economy. that's my best excuse.

my hammitt bag is coming on monday! and i still want that alexander wang.








mine is cream colored though








celebrity pink cargos/urban outfitters top/h&m jacket/mk bag/jc wedges














swore i heard a gunshot. it's downtown la. it's completely likely.


nik!

praying for the best,
jenny bean